Sunday, June 27


Oh my gosh... School's tomorrow. I dread it. Come on, no one likes it anyway. Plus there's the down factor with exams. I hate it. I'm totally unprepared. I only hope God can answer my questions tomorrow.

Posted by Isabelle at 9:41 pm

Saturday, June 26


Oh man... Saturday already... Where did the holidays go? Hmm.

Feeling tired. Gonna sleep soon...

Posted by Isabelle at 10:21 pm

Friday, June 25


Oh great, two days to school and I haven't really studied. Panic. Panic... God help me.

Posted by Isabelle at 10:21 pm

Thursday, June 24


Wow. Totally blew it. Absolutely temperamental. Cracked up. Geesh. *grins* Oh well.

Posted by Isabelle at 12:59 pm

Tuesday, June 22


Finally back, and man, has it been a week. Kinda different from the previous trips. I mean, look, trip in June, we moved in temporarily into a stylish condo, dad's got a new car... Hmm. New experience. It also dawned to me that I'm already 18, I only have 5 more months to official school end (uni doesn't count), and my birthday's coming. I'm getting older. Oh my god.

Can't really believe things are turning out the way they are. Hmm. You know, Kuching trips always get to me no matter what. I can't avoid that momentary depression that always comes whenever I come back. But thank God I actually felt better this time. I mean, no mood swings... Yeah. Hate that. Can't really control myself. It's weird. I never liked coming back, and perhaps never will, but at least I don't want to let myself break down like every other time.

So glad Ven and Xin came to see me, like take my mind off things... I guess it's good I get a call straight to talk crap. Really helped. Don't feel so moody. Man, I'm weak, but who cares?

I know I'm weak, so I make myself more rational, more sensible, less moody. I know I'm basically just a crybaby, so I blink back my tears everytime, and sniff back. Pretend everything's fine. Nothing gets to me. But sometimes I'm too tired. Simply exhausted. No more games.

And I cry.

Posted by Isabelle at 6:54 pm

Sunday, June 20


Finally getting some connection here in the House after spending days over at the condo. Hmm. Have to stay here since my grandma's all alone in the house. Not really getting any work done though. Surfing the net's more important. But I just know I have to study. Man, it's getting on my nerves to keep reminding myself of that. Willpower my foot.

Feel like watching some vcds and eating some chips, lying on the couch. Man. Life.

Posted by Isabelle at 9:36 pm

Thursday, June 17


Back at the House, but alone, since dad dumped me here so he could get some things done. Ah ma and my aunt went out, so I'm actually pretty bored. Boy... haven't seen him for three days. Man, school sucks. I think I really have to wait for the weekends to come. Hmm. Slept really late last night (at least, it's late for me), about 1am, and only regained conscious about 9 something. My dad's friends are all gone, and tonight it'll be me with my dad. I think. Having his friends around sure made the condo sounded lively.

Currently trying to mug a little on chem, but you know, the Net always manage to distract me. Read a little on ionic equilibrium though. At least I'm starting to understand a little on that topic. Used to kill me.

Hmm... dad's back. Just heard the gate opening, and the brand new car driving in.

Posted by Isabelle at 2:55 pm

Tuesday, June 15


Woo.. Totally awed by the condo my dad was temporarily staying in... Man... Huge swimming pool, sauna and gym facilities... Life. Come on. The place's great for doing some studying by the balcony, viewing the city skyline (but not much though), and purely relaxing. Couldn't wish for a better place to stay at.

This trip's been pretty exciting, my dad's bought a new car just last friday, and he's collecting it tomorrow (wee!), he also thinking of getting me a notebook (I mean those electronic kind... think laptop), and now we are currently living in a condo... Hmm. Not that the condo's his (he's taking care of it for a friend), but you know, the kind of feeling he gives other people... Well. What the hell, who cares about gossips. Anyway, I'm glad I came this June, to see so much changes, and for once I haven't seen boy yet. Hmm. Too bad, it's school time for him, so currently prawning sessions will have to wait until the weekends. Maybe we could go fishing again.

Posted by Isabelle at 11:49 pm

Monday, June 14


Going off tomorrow. Finally. About 15 more hours before I board the plane... Then, I get the flu bug. I'm serious. The symptoms... Hoarse throat, bad appetite, near-deaf ears of mine (doesn't help that I'm actually deaf myself)... Crap. These viruses sure pick the right time to invade. And I was actually healthy the whole year round before I have to collapse during the hols. Great. Simply great.

Absolutely spoils my mood.

Posted by Isabelle at 10:03 pm

Sunday, June 13


Well, seems like nothing to do, and don't really feel like mugging either. Two more days to Kuching, and I haven't really packed my bag yet. No, I haven't even touched the luggage yet. Hmm. Lazy lar.

Posted by Isabelle at 1:55 pm

Saturday, June 12


Kana suan!!!!!!!!!!! Wa.... cannot stand that sickening person....

Finally bought the cd I've been eyeing on for so long... The singing's fabulous, plus I finally found the songs I've been looking for, all in one great 'The Angels Sing' album!! Wahahahaha.....

Posted by Isabelle at 10:42 pm

Thursday, June 10


Wow. Almost two weeks passed before I noticed how fast time had gone by. I'm already supposed to be packing up, but somehow I don't feel as excited as I was last year. Maybe it's just the frequent trips. I can almost take it for granted. I'm already 18 (soon), been flown up and down for uncountable times, though this is the first time I'm actually going on during the school year. Long time since I returned in June. I think I stopped the practice ever since I entered Xinmin. Too busy. Cannot blame. Maybe it's because it's the frequency so I actually don't think it's an excitable thing... Maybe. But anyhow, I'm still glad I can go. It's really been a long time since I returned in June.

Posted by Isabelle at 8:34 pm

Monday, June 7


Feeling a little crappy today, but felt good at the same time, since Ven drove both of us past Changi Beach, and the airport. Wahahaa.... Felt the loud vroom over our heads when we drove past. Twice. Hehe. Crazy lar... Felt as if petrol didn't cost any, and we took the car from ang mo kio down to pasir ris down to airport and past east coast towards marina south, then reversed the route back home. Great. Can't believe it.

Posted by Isabelle at 10:22 pm

Thursday, June 3


Watched Harry Potter. Didn't do much actually, went to school for barely half an hour before escaping to watch movie, which we had to get our butts all the way down to Woodlands to watch it. Lol.

Posted by Isabelle at 10:10 pm

Wednesday, June 2


Whheeeee!!!! Accomsplishment!!! Got my PS 2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *acclaims* Can't believe it, but it's right sitting at the place where my PS 1 was.......... So proud of myself. Saved up money, persuaded my mom... Actually the money part was easy. It was the convincing mom part that got me stumped. Can't believe my mum would allow.... Gosh. She was so fascinated too! Can't you believe? Sometimes my mom just stun me too much.

Posted by Isabelle at 10:08 pm

Tuesday, June 1


Major accomplishment today. Bought a puzzle somewhat on impulse, coz it's for someone's birthday (I won't mention names), then decided to finish it all in one day. And I did. Whee... Cannot imagine the ache I had all over having my back slouched to do that. Caoz. (Still so proud at my achievement. Hehe.)

Wonder what that person's gonna say.

Posted by Isabelle at 10:52 pm